Learning to "Be."

I thought this was going to go differently. I was supposed to create a beautiful new studio where everything was perfectly in place and then invite you in. You know - all the polish and shine and none of the mess.

I was foolish, and I am sorry. I believe in authentic. I value vulnerability. Not only did I have unrealistic expectations, but I have also been going about this all wrong.

I love Brene’ Brown and preach her wisdom, but knowing it and sharing it isn’t nearly as important — or as scary — as living it. Theodore Roosevelt made stepping into the arena sound so valiant. My face is marred, quite literally, with dust and sweat and tears these days. The uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure feels uncomfortable — and lonely.

I’ve created that feeling by not embracing the discomfort that is unfinished floors, too-fancy-for-me wall sconces, mirror-less walls, and mats that don’t match the color scheme. I feel silly typing that out loud, because I know you aren’t that fickle. I know you appreciate the very same things I do — the power of Pilates and the connection you share with each other.

This is not my journey to take alone. You are my tribe. Rather than tuck away and continue to go it alone behind closed doors in an empty studio, I’m inviting you to join me on this journey.

The road will be a bit bumpy, but we will take it one day at a time. The scheduling software, app and website are being created. The machines are being refurbished. Brand new springs are being manufactured. Mirrors will go up. Floors will be finished. Lights will be updated. New bands and weights will replace old. It will be exciting to celebrate the milestones — big and small — together.

Thank you for your calls, emails and texts. I am humbled by your support and will forever be grateful for your patience and grace. Thank you for helping me learn to “Be.”